It has been a while since i have added any new information to the site and thought i would just take some time to let you all know how I am doing.
I have been seeing my psychiatrist on a regular basis roughly every 3 months. My current mental status is stable due to the combination of medications I am on now.
Before I finally found the right combination of medications I had some bad experiences from some combinations of medications I was on. One medication i was hallucinating seeing and hearing things that weren’t there. I dealt with that for some time until my Dr changed my medications again.
One of my medications that I am still on actually makes my hands shake uncontrollably however my Dr lowered the dosage of that medication and I have minimal shaking of my hands now. When I go out to eat my hands shake a little while eating but other than that I really can’t complain too much.
Before the medication dosage was lowered I couldn’t even sign my name because my hands were shaking so bad. I find that if I work on doing certain types of stuff for more than a few minutes my hands start shaking a little bit and if I do other stuff too long my hands will shake for several days after I did what ever it was I was doing such as yard work.
Before I started taking medications I used to be very suicidal and wanted to end my life. When I first was put on medications for my depression it helped just slightly by making it a little easier to keep from hurting myself but really wasn’t doing much more than that. The Dr I had at that time upped my medication Anatriptyline 25mg to 50mg dosage and I started having more problems than before. I tried repeatedly to get a hold of my Dr at that time between going in and calling to try to get my medication changed and my Dr wouldn’t see me.
At this time Obamacare had taken over and my insurance must have changed and I would guess that my Dr didn’t take my current insurance at that time. I never did find out why my Dr wouldn’t see me because I changed counties from Yolo County to Sacramento County. That in it’s self was a nightmare and finally after like a month of going between Yolo County and Sacramento County the worker from Sacramento County finally contacted Yolo County directly and they fixed the issues that were preventing me from switching counties.
After I got the mess switching counties fixed I was able to get signed up for medical insurance through Anthem BlueCross – Medi-Cal. I then was able to make a Dr appointment with my primary Dr and told her what was going on with my medications and she lowered the dosage back to the original dosage and I started not having the problems I was having with the higher dosage.
Eventually I ended up checking myself into the hospital because I was suicidal and wanted to hurt myself. I spent the night at the regular hospital and was going to be released by them when I told them I still was suicidal they made arrangements to transfer me to the mental hospital and was informed that I would have to stay there for the 3 day hold.
After I got to the mental hospital things didn’t get better right away. I tried to explain to the Dr there what I was going through and it was like they didn’t care what I had to tell them. I ended up in the hospital for like 10 days I think before I finally got the help I needed and was able to make plans to be released from there after I had written down what I was going through and the problems I was having trying to communicate with the Dr there.
After I got out of the mental hospital things started turning around for me. I was finally able to get on the road to recovery and started getting the help I needed. I was able to finally get a psychiatrist and was diagnosed with Bi-Polar Disorder, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, and Anxiety Disorder. I was also taken off the Anatriptyline and was put on some different anti-depressants.
Through a lot of trial and error I finally found a combination of medications that have kept me stable now. The only drawback to my current medications is the one medication I am on still makes my hands shake a little but it really isn’t a problem for me unless I end up doing certain types of things for too long. other than the side effect of shaking of hands, my mental issues are under control now.
I still have physical problems that I have to deal with. When I first ended up homeless and on the streets I had went from not riding my bicycle at all for more than a year to riding it for miles every day and ended up having bad leg cramps and hand cramps. I had no choice but to keep riding to get to where I was trying to go at the time and ended up doing permanent damage to my hands and legs. My hands go numb and tingly at times and my legs give me problems from time to time however I find that I mostly have the problems with my hands and legs when I am trying to work on stuff.
I also get light headed all the time. going from laying down to sitting up or to standing I can get very lightheaded at times. I was diagnosed in Yolo County – West Sacramento with Orthostatic Hypotension I think is what it was. I think the Dr said that my blood pressure dropped when I sat up or stood up. I have had this problem some time before I ever saw a Dr for my issues and was one thing that I was diagnosed with while I was staying in West Sacramento.
Recently I was telling my psychiatrist about I was getting light headed and he asked how much liquid I drank each day. When I told him how much I usually was drinking he said I should like double my liquid intake because it could be why I am getting light headed. So I am now trying to drink more liquid each day and hopefully my lightheaded problem will go away more.
There has been times that I have nearly passed out from getting lightheaded. It is not a fun when you may just reach down to pick something up and you start getting really lightheaded. I have learned if I do certain things when I get lightheaded I can make it not get as bad as it will get if I don’t do it a certain way. I am just thankful that I haven’t blacked out yet though a few times I nearly did.
Well I hope everyone is doing better and getting the help they need. I know some of the people I know are doing better since I last talked to them while others aren’t doing as well as they should be yet. But I also know that it can take a lot of trial and error to find the correct medications to make things better for you. Also never stop taking your medications even if you are feeling better unless your Dr tells you to stop taking it. The medications are what is helping to make you feel better and if you just stop taking them you can have bad side effects and even end up in the hospital again.
As for me…. I am doing well. Just thought I needed to post something new today to the site even though small parts of this post are just repeated from other parts of the site. I also noticed that I was missing some stuff on my site here so I updated it today so everything is now posted on this site.